Why me, God ?

Dear God,

I would like to thank you for what you've already done for me. I know I have many sins. That I hope you'll forgive.

Sometimes I think You've forgotten about me. And You no longer love me. I don't think you hear my ocean of cries. That continues to rise. As the sun sets and rise. I need You now more than ever. I may be a little clever. But with You in my life I know my life will soon get better. I feel so alone. And bad luck prone.

I feel like I can't go on. I can't worship You in song. But this journey is so long. I need you God. Where are you? Do You still love me? Am I not still Your child? I know sometimes I get a little wild.

The pain is too much. It's been very rough. I try to be tough. But I don't know how much more I can take. The pain in my back is as sharp as a knife. That I wish sometimes would end my life. People lie and steal. But they don't know the taste of their own bitter pill. I believe I can fly. If I only give it a try. But my self esteem is anything but high. Hello are You still there ? God do You hear my cry ? I'm tired of watching my mother cry. "Sigh". It makes me want to die. I would give my own life. Just to see her smile. Which she only does every once in a while now. She's my hero. But I know You have all the power. So please God please. I'm begging on my knees. I'll do anything for a blessing. I'll climb the highest mountain and swim across the deepest sea. If not for me, then please do it for her.

Hear my prayers. Hear my cries. I know you love all things even the trees and the seas. But again I'm begging you please. I can't take this pain. The storm is rough. And I want to get out of the rain. So I ask you again God. Do You still love me? Am I still your child ? Are you listening ?
Oh God why oh why is this happening to me ?
Oh Why God ?
Why me, God ?

G.